Love So Lost

love-so-lost

by RF

From the moment I laid my eyes on you, from the moment I watched your eyes and held your hand when no one else watched, I knew how we would end.

I knew I couldn’t change the fate that awaited, the words I would hear from you once we fell deeper in this wrong lifetime.

I knew we would not last because we were born in a different angle of life.

You believed in something I did not, and I did not believe on what you did – yet, I took that risk, I took that temporary link of happy feelings, no matter how hard, because I did not hang loosely on the false promise of tomorrow.

I wanted you every second, and I knew you did, too.

We loved too much, cared too much everyday, and did not care on what the next seconds of this life would bring to us because we sealed our unsaid promises already and that was enough.

It was magical how we invested on our hearts and not on the scriptures that said we should be apart. We learned to love in secret from your fear that your father would kill me once he knew, and I understood.

We would endure catching our gazes every morning and tell each other how happy we felt that time every night.

We lived that kind love. But that kind of love wasn’t meant to happen forever.

On the cold evening before Christmas Eve, you wanted to meet. We strolled the street together, and we were quiet. You were looking down. I was looking at you when you looked up with a worry circling your irises. There were already tears beside your eyelids – and I knew what it meant. I always had, but I did not believe it was that time, that it was finally flashing right before my eyes.

”Let’s stop this,” you said.

The cars passed and it took me time to understand what I heard.
I did not know what to do. I looked at you for a second, and I just walked away with the weight building on my chest. I had no words to fathom the chaos of emotions. I only had the feet to run away because you were right.

We should stop it.

Months after that, I asked, why did it still hurt when I expected it coming? And I found out that everything in a person’s mind would feel different when it was happening in his reality.

In that moment of our farewell, my brain became coward and shut down – and what was left to bravely confront the pain was my heart. That was why, it was the lone thing that shattered after showing a false strength in your eyes.

From the moment I laid my eyes on you, from the moment I watched your eyes and held your hand when no one else watched, I knew how we would end.

I knew I couldn’t change the fate that awaited, the words I would hear from you once we fell deeper in this wrong lifetime.

But in between those times, I fought hard – and I knew, you did too.

But this kind of love wasn’t meant for us. It could just never be.

We needed to let go and part ways because that was written as our final walk in this love so lost.

(Visited 21,384 times, 1 visits today)

Comments Go Here ▼

Comments

SHARE
Previous articleMaganda Ka
Next articleEh Ano Naman