i just want you to know that…
They say “its better to loved and lost, than to never loved at all.”Goodbyes make us think.Makes us realize what we had, what we’ve lost and what we’ve taken for granted.
Its takes a lot of bravery for me to write this letter for you knowing that this will be the last. Na some of my messages ay nabasa muna.
It’s been months the last time we’ve talked, I still remember kung paano nagsimula ang lahat.
I’m grateful for what we had way back when we were together when everything was fine. You never know i how much i loved you and cared for you . You made me realize that love is never about complaining of what a person cannot provide but be thankful of what he can offer wholeheartedly. Alam ko sawang-sawa ka na kababasa ng thank you ko sa’yo pero promise last na talaga ito.
Thank you for letting me in.
Thank you for letting me feel that I was special for you.
Thank you for being understanding and being there for me sa lahat ng mga kadramahan ko sa buhay.
Thank you for all the the sacrifices and efforts you’ve rendered. I appreciated it.
Thank you for staying everytime I push you away.
Thank you for giving me the BEST that you could.
Thank you for loving me despite of all my imperfections.
Thank you dahil binigyan mo ako ng pagkakataong mahalin ka.
Thank you for being my everything in our small infinity.
Indeed your such an angel, a God given-blessing.
Aside from thank you, gusto ko ding mag-sorry sa’yo.
Sorry sa mga pagkukulang ko dati, sa pagiging burden ko sa’yo, alam ko din na nahihirapan ka na sa ‘kin kaya sorry.
Sorry kasi I was so selfish back then.
Sorry kasi hindi na ako nakabawi pa sayo.
Sorry kung hindi ko nakayang ibigay lahat ng gusto mo na alam kung magpapasaya sa’yo,sorry kung hanggang don lang ang lahat.
Sorry kung minahal kita ng ganito.
Sorry kung hindi ako naging sapat sa ‘yo.
Please know that your efforts before are highly much appreciated and treasured.
This is the hardest part I did my best to save us, to win you back. I did tried to save the love i have for you kahit 1% nalang ung chance pinanghahawakan ko pa.
Napapagod ka na, sobrang sakit I did my very best to make you happy, yong kahit bawal ginawa ko. Yong tipong magkakilala na lang tayo.
Hanggang yong mga pagbabagong yon ay tumagal hanggang ngayon. Di ko na maramdaman yung dating ikaw. Mahirap yong wala akong idea kung ano pa ba, meron pa ba o wala na. I thought your a man, how’d wish na sa naging man enough ka na sabihin sa’kin lahat. Gustuhin ko man magtanong pero di magawa kasi base sa mga pinapakita mo andun na yong sagot pero sana naging matapang ka hanggang sa huli. So eto na. Ako na yong maglalakas ng loob sa atin kahit mahirap.
“Handsome M, I know you knew that ILOVEYOU though your feelings aren’t the same the way I do. I am deeply hurt mahal, I just don’t want to believe that everything between us is fine, that everything is still the same, na iniisip ko na lang lagi your love is still the same, na walang nagbago sa’yo, kahit masakit ayos lang, kaya pa Mahal, but I’m not blaming you for this, its my fault for expecting way too much, my heart is really breaking when you ignore me, pero tiniis ko yon. ganun pa man Thank you for making me happy all the time especially when were together eating siomai or simple hang out, you made me felt special in some ways and thank you so much for making me feel that I am valued and appreciated, I miss that way Mahal, though it was very short lived happiness Hindi ko yon pinagsisihan, kahit Hindi ako masaya sa mga nangyayari satin ngayon, kahit nasasaktan ako, I still love you. I promise I will never be a hindrance to your happiness no matter who the girl will be. I will always support you and be happy for you. I will always be here, I love you still and I will always be Mahal no matter how hard our situation is, how hard our no Label relationship I’m still here, dahil kaya ko pa kahit parang ikaw Hindi na, pero I do not hate you Mahal, though this is the most painful thing, but i will try to accept it. I want you to be happy I’m sorry for loving you so much. I am forever grateful and thankful that you entered in my life. If we ever meet again soon. I hope everything already changes for good. Sana mag iingat ka palagi mag pray at sana successful career padin ang wish ko para sayo at sa family mo. Always remember din na your just one of the best things that happened to me..I am really looking forward that we are fine ” pero wala na talaga, ginawa kuna lahat…. Oo siguro ang tanga ko pagdating sayo na kahit paulit ulit muna akong saktan andito padin ako, paulit ulit kapa ding pinagbibigyan.”
At hanggang sa dapat nung Christmas pa, pero parang hindi ko pa kaya, hinihintay kita, pero wala talaga e. Kahit bati wala.. I dont know kung may hinihintay pa ako o wala na?? So i decided na sabihin sayo to….
MALAYA KA NA. MALAYA KA NA, Mahal.
Sa lahat ang pag-aalinlangan mo kung meron man. I want you to choose happiness, I want you to be truly happy even if that means that I cannot be part of your life anymore.. I know that someday I’ll be fine, I can fight all this pain, that still can fight this, that I can still make it but I cannot do this all alone so I don’t have any choice so I decided to let you go, let you do more and free. Maybe the amount of happiness I shared with you can’t fill the happiness you need. You deserve every good thing in the world. I’m always praying for you to be blessed and safe. Ayoko pa sana pero gusto kuna na maging masaya ka.. Hindi ko alam kung nagkulang ba ako o sumobra ang pagmamahal ko sa’yo. Ayoko na iniisip mo ako, I choose to stay pero parang wala na, kaya kahit mahirap sakin gawin to, kakayanin ko to make you happy.
Letting you go takes a lot of courage, bravery for me but still I’m making it for you. I’m letting you free of me. I’m letting you go even if you’re already left. I hope you will also find the lucky one who deserves all of your love. Who can give all the happiness that I was not able to give you. It’s really hard to say goodbye.
But the memories I have collected from you will be treasured by my heart.
I LOVE YOU. Goodbye.
Ps. Nasabi ko na sa’yo ‘to, pero wala akong nakuhang malinaw na sagot sa’yo. Siguro nga wala na, pero sana naging totoo ka. Napatawad na kita kaya wala na sigurong dahilan para maging magkaibigan pa… Pasensya na masakit lang talaga. Hindi ko to gusto pero kailangan kong gawin to para mahalin ko naman yong sarili ko na nakalimutan kong mahalin dahil sayo.Hindi mo na makikita ang message na to. Kung dumating man yong time na magkita tayo, sana OKAY na ako.
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