by Besty |
This is for you Bes, the one who i can tell everything.The one who knows everything about me from head to toe. The one who has there for me through happiness and sadness , my other half.
We, of course have had our moments where things have been rough like right now and we have lost touch but I hope you know I have always and will always be here for you.
“Maybe some people just aren’t meant to be in our lives forever. Maybe some people are just passing through. It’s like some people just come through our lives to bring us something — a gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn.And that’s why they’re here. You’ll have that gift forever.”
I feel like this is when I should tell you how much I miss you, but a part of me knows you probably don’t care. So much has happened since we last talked and I’ve wanted you to know it all. Isn’t that twisted? Even though we’re no longer friends, I still want to tell you all the things I used to. And it sucks because you’re not that person to me anymore. I miss you.
We were supposed to be best friends forever but the next thing I knew we were growing further and further apart. And it breaks me to see you go on with your life without me in it.
But i guess that’s life , nothing is constant and no one owes you anything. And even though we’re not friends anymore, I still want to thank you.
Thank you for Everything like really Everything. Thank you for being my li’l sister Bestfriend, Thank you for dealing with my bullsh*ts everyday. Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on when I’m broken. Thank you for being the Bestest Bestfriend. Thank you for being open with me. Thank you for all the ‘libres’ and thank you because you stayed for a while — when I was able to hold your hand, when I was by your side.
I talked to God, thanking Him because He gave me so much blessing in my life and that was you. I said “I don’t need a boyfriend or what else,” because I have my Bestfriend with me and that’s enough.
I still scroll through pictures of us and smile. I read old conversations and laugh. And whenever I see something that reminds me of you or an inside joke, I almost always feel like sending it to you.
It breaks me that I lost you.
I miss you a lot. I miss texting you about every single thing that happens in my life. Memories of us pop in my head. Us going to Mcdo or Jolibee anytime we want because you’re always hungry, haha! Or going anywhere with you everytime we both have vacant classes. You comforting me when I’m sad. I cut classes just to be with you, remember? Everything. Memories of us having phone calls. You being with me everyday. I miss your laugh, I miss you.
Many memories that show up kill me inside because it reminds me that we aren’t (and might not ever be) that close again. Having you as my best friend was one of the best things that happened to me so far in my life and I am beyond thankful for the memories we have together, good and bad.
I’m so upset that we let our friendship get to where it is now. How did this happen? What happened to us? Sorry if I took you for granted. You never saw what I did just for you. I was ready to give up everything and give it to you just to make you feel that I love you and I wanted the best for you. But this happened.
It all feels like a blur because, it happened so fast. How did we even let this happen? I’m mad that we didn’t fight harder for our friendship. Our friendship was different than most and I can’t believe we let it slip away. I am mad with myself that I allowed our friendship to become nothing but memories and old photos.
I’m sorry for everything. Thank you so much for being my other half, my best friend, my sister. I love you always.